Heartbreak is one of the most painful things you can experience. It's not like something you can physically see, put a bandaid on it and move on.
The pain consumes you to the point where it feels like your heart has just been ripped out of your chest.
You feel like you can't breathe.
You don't want to eat.
You just want to sit and cry until you've exhausted all the tears in your entire body.
And having to socialize with people makes it even worse.
So, you just lay in your bed, avoid everything, and hope that the pain will go magically go away.
It doesn't.
I don't think a person could ever really describe what it's like to have your heartbroken.
I think what hurts the most on top of it all is allowing your thoughts to consume you and literally eat you alive along with the pieces of your heart metaphorically laying around everywhere.
When you had so many hopes, expectations, and truly fell for someone who you thought wanted you just as much, it's one of the most painful and mentally trifling experiences that never fails to surprise me.
I'm a person who never gives up hope. What's meant to be will be.
But that doesn't mean I will forget about what a heartbreak did to me.
It's so easy to blame yourself for caring too much, loving too much, exposing every fiber of your being to someone, or giving them your heart.
You should never condemn yourself for that. It's something I continuously do.
Accept what was and move on with what is.
You are an amazing being and there are so many people in your life that love you and appreciate those aspects of you. It's easy to lose yourself when you completely divulge into a relationship with someone and especially someone who never really understood everything about you.
You deserve to be appreciated, loved, and should never question what you do or how you feel.
What do you do with all the memories?
What do you do on a day when the pain seems to tug at you?
What do you do when you see them in person or even on social media even if your relationship didn't end badly?
These are battles you will have to fight everyday but you can do it even if it hurts.
Just focus on you.
The only person you should truly express all the love in the world to is yourself.
Take this time to not only mend your heart but pieces of yourself and your life.
It's hard. Trust me, I know.
How do you just forget everything and pretend that everything is okay when it feels like it's not?
Embrace the pain and the feelings when you need to but don't dwell.
Don't let anyone tell you how you should feel or that you need to get over this ASAP.
We all need to go through the grieving process of losing what was once there.
You lost something you held very,very close to your heart -- it feels like you lost a piece of your heart or it was returned to you completely damaged when you gave it away to someone you loved.
Although I'm not a huge horoscope person or believe in what personality traits they tie one to, I do kind of see some similarities in what they say.
As a Cancer, I'm sensitive and very emotional.
I wear my heart on my damn face -- saying a sleeve would be putting it lightly.
I take things a lot harder than most and I feel things a lot deeper than most.
Every heartbreak never gets easier.
You feel like you betrayed and fooled yourself all over again.
You didn't.
You were in love and you deeply cared for someone so don't convince yourself what you felt wasn't real because it was.
What truly tells you how much you love or care about something or someone is the pain that comes along from losing it.
Yes, hate every man for a moment because you just got your heartbroken by one.
Yes, think that they are all the same for the moment.
Yes, pour yourself a glass of wine or finish an entire bottle and cry it out.
Yes, stay away from them all for fear of getting your heart shattered again until someone shows you otherwise.
Just don't allow someone to think that you're unworthy or not capable of being loved because you are.
Love stinks. You honestly can't have love without pain. They come hand in hand.
But don't ever, ever give up on love.
It may be with the person you just broke up with but maybe just not now.
It might not be with them at all but with someone you never imagined or haven't met yet.
Our lives have a much bigger picture that we can't see and that's something we all need to learn to embrace.
Keep your head up and remember that you are always in charge of your happiness :)
xoxo,
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